Happy times,..!!?

Happy days,.. Just around the corner,.?? Well I am excited actually,... One of my best friends is getting engaged,..

And I m having a sleep over,. My first ever,.. With the two most important people in my life,.. I just love how I can be so comfy and open with them,.. Looking forward to it,..!!

14th December-- shree s engaged.  I m back,..!! Well,.. It's over with now,.. The sleepover, the engagement,.. I had lots of fun.. But most of all, I was happy for her,.. This was the 2nd time we had a sleepover together,..!! We stayed up till 2am in the morning,.. We just talked,. It felt so relaxing,.. Just luv them,. I don't  know what I would hv done without them in my life,..

Are you a Coward??

That's what you are,.. Coward!!

Geez,. When are you gonna do what you want,.. There are so many things u love and want to do right,.. Why don't you,..
1. Learn guitar
2. Learn calligraphy

Those are the 2 things, I ve always admired,.. But then again I can call myself a Coward,. But mostly I am afraid to ask them,.. I m worried about money all the time.. The classes will have money, and a new guitar will also cost around 5k,. I can't ask them to spend it on me again,.

Am just a pathetic loser who can't even get a job,. What's wrong with you,.. You always do half assed job with everything,. Don't run away,..

Damsel in distress

"Damsel in distress"--meaning a women is in trouble and she s waiting for someone to come for her rescue..

To be frank, I want to be the one who rescues,. And the the damsel in distress is my sister rinks,.. I want to see her happy,. But then again I m such an useless person who cant even help her,.. I know she s depressed and puts on a poker face in front of everyone, I realize she s being reasonable keeping our feelings in mind, but if she can't open up and be blaming herself for everything, I can't help her..

I m worried about her a lot, I just don't know how to fix it,..

She never tells what she feels, I can understand just by looking at her face,. She s angry all the time, feel like she acts like a kid,. But that's good,. Do what u feel,.. She s forces herself to do stuff, which I really don't like,.. Don't do it just because others tell you to,. Be strong and think for yourself,.

This might have been going on for a while, probably after she came back from pune,.. Smoking, drinking, getting high,..gosh I got the shock of my life when I found it out, uff..

God,. Help me, to help her.. Love you